Bleh.

Preliminary Warning: do not read this post if you don't like complaining and brutal honesty... :)


UGH!!! I did not like today. My stomach has been hurting all day, I was exhausted during lectures, someone squished my play-dough flower that took me 2 1/2 hours to make, and my heart hurts.

Let me explain. So, the day started off great (besides waking up late) with toaster pancakes!! (They're like pre-cooked pancakes you just put in the toaster...weird but good). Then it went downhill. Devotion was alright but the guy asked us to go ask God to speak to us and then come back, so it was cut short and not too inspirational, the only word I got was "Joshua" and I'm pretty sure I just got that because the last guy I passed before going to my room was a guy named Josh... or maybe it was God and I'm just grumpy.

Lecture was alright, but I wanted to fall asleep the whole time and it was hard to focus. Then our speaker told us to go out and be confident that God would speak to us in a new way and come back and tell us what happened. So, after 20 minutes of straining my ears and eyes trying to discern God's voice I came back to the room pretty disappointed and struggling not to get my hopes down...but I lost that struggle.

After a lunch where I ate too much I headed over to the coffee shop to check my e-mail. It rained right before I left so my Toms were soaked by the time I got to the shop which caused my toes to turn into frozen raisins.

And the coffee shop is a whole different story. It was basically the worst two hours I've had since arrival in Australia. The only redeeming quality was that my sister was on skype encouraging me the whole time. I am so incredibly blessed to have her as a sister - she's my best friend. She stayed up and gave me advice without pushing it on me, she made jokes to keep me from crying in public, and she turned on the video even though the audio wouldn't work just so she could see my face and I could see hers. She even stayed up waaaaay after her bedtime to help me through it!! Which, if you know her is a BIG deal!

After I finished at the coffee shop I picked up my bruised heart and made the walk home having to act "together" and give the girl I walked with advice - which oddly enough kinda helped me heal. But, all I wanted to do when I got home was lay in my bed, listen to my ipod, cover my head with a blanket and cry. But, LaChelle wanted someone to walk with her to the coffee shop again so we skipped dinner and walked together - which was nice.

Now, I'm here sitting miserably in a hard wooden chair listening to stupid music on the radio rushing to write this email so I won't be late for our first performing arts workshop tonight.

Bleh. That's pretty much what I'm feeling right now. Just Bleh. I don't even have enough emotional or physical energy to write something redeeming at the end of this blog, so you can just add your own I guess.

G'Night.