Thursday, September 9, 2010

I'm a really big fan of yours...


Apparently Texas and Australia have more in common than just me being here! It's been raining here like crazy!!! Well, crazy as in drizzling and a few rain showers...but, still, I think it's weird that its raining at the exact same time in two places on other sides of the really is a small world. :)

Let me start by telling you about my evening last night! We had our "conference meeting" but it was "national themed" so, you either dressed up in your cultural dress or you adopted a nation and dressed in their cultural dress. Well, since my "cultural dress" would be jeans and a T-shirt I adopted Tahiti as my nation and wore a pareu (like a sarong dress). We watched a traditional Samoan fire dance, a beautiful hula dance, and sang every song in a different language. I LOVED it! Then we had a time of pure praise and everyone was free to worship however they wanted to! They passed around the mike so everyone could praise out loud in their own language if they wanted to!

To be completely honest I don't normally like times like this because I feel like what I "should" say is all these big words of praise about how vastly huge God is and how his power is like the sun and blah blah blah. BUT, this time all I could even utter out of my mouth was "I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you..." I must have whispered it to Him two hundred times! But, it wasn't just me telling him that I loved Him, it was Him telling me "Clancy, this is what I whisper to you all day every day...I love you"

I found myself on my knees with my head in my hands, my hair sticking to my damp face, and then it felt like my head was on fire. And I asked, "Holy Spirit is that you?!" And my ears started to feel like they were burning, it was like I was in this huge hot cloud. So I said, "Jesus, are you here?" And I immediately felt like he was RIGHT in front of my face, and this first thing I thought was "I'm a really big fan of yours!!"....WHAT?!?! Did I seriously just say that?! Yep.

No joke, at all. The first thing that came to my mind when I felt Jesus right near me was "I'm a really big fan of yours"....I can't believe it! As soon as I realized what I said I started busting out laughing! It was such a heartfelt laugh, too. It was like Jesus was laughing with me!

But, you know what? It was the truth! I'm more than just a "fan" of his, I really really admire everything He's done and everything He's doing - and I was honestly starstruck by him! :) But, I think it meant a lot to him, I mean He made me and He knows how I talk and knows that that was the most sincere reaction I could have possibly uttered.

And from that moment on I felt this absolute joy, appreciation, and love the entire service! It was like when I got down to my truest absolute core I found that my personality that I show to people is REALLY who I am! I mean, if that's how I react when it's just me and my Jesus and no one else is even paying attention then that's WHO I am. I don't need to be ashamed of hiding my personality! Jesus loves it, and hopefully in his power He'll make it so other people do too! :)

After a GREAT evening of worship and release of past pain I hung out with my roomates for some girl bonding time before bed! I LOVE living with a bunch of girls! They're SO fun!

This morning we had a pretty normal morning of work duties and breakfast then we had an absolutely insanely long lecture from 9AM to 1PM!! I then ate a quick light lunch and went outside to enjoy the springtime on the swing while talking to a friend. It was amazing!

Now I think I will go put up some pictures of my week and then try and steal a quiiiiiick nap before we have a worship "concert" (I think their definition of the word "concert" and "conference" are different than mine...but we'll see)

Also, I was just informed that our internet is being shut down again for about a week or more :( So, my updates might be very short and scarce b/c I'll have to walk to the coffee shop and pay 5 bucks for 30 minutes of internet :( BUT maybe your hard core prayers can get the internet up and running in a day or two!

OOOH, and tomorrow we learn where our outreach locations are!!!!! I'll let you all know as soon as I can! But, I can't tell you what I decide until Monday (we're supposed to keep it a secret except from family until we announce it to the school).

G'Night everyone!! :)


  1. Hi Clancy! You probably don't remember me, but we had drama class together when I was in 8th grade and you were a sophomore at CDA. I always knew there was something special about you, and not just your amazing acting talents! I am so excited to hear everything God is doing in your life and I know he has big plans in store for you! I'll be praying for you! Love, Carolina Grace

  2. Great post. And you know, He's a big fan of yours, too!